It's sunny and warm today, even kind of hot.
今天阳光明媚,天气温暖,甚至有点热.
Ignoring the exhaustion, I get relaxed, feel gratified.
忘掉疲惫,我得到放松,感到了内心的满足.
Because I got it---I’ve lived through another cold winter.
因为我知道了——我已经度过了一个寒冷的冬天.
This is a matter for me named lucky.
对我来说这是一件幸运的事.
The ugly scar on my hands shows chilblain, once again.
在我手上丑陋的伤痕又一次变成了冻疮.
It has accompanied me, every winter, for 15 years.
它已陪伴了我15年的每一个冬天.
I still can’t free myself from this damn thing.
我仍然不能从这该死的东西中解放我自己.
Let it be, whatever.
随它吧,无所谓了.
I just want my quondam hands back.
我只是想要我的以前的手回来.
Facing toward the computer, I spend at least 13 hours each day.
我每天至少花13个小时面对着电脑.
That’s too much for my poor eyes.
对我的眼睛伤害太大了.
But I have to, although I can’t stop the tears, take away the pain sometimes.
但是我必须这样,虽然我无法阻止流泪,带走痛苦的时候.
I can tell, my eyesight becomes more indistinct, and eyes smaller.
我可以感觉到,我的视力越来越模糊,眼睛更小了.
Quite a few people once said I have beautiful eyes, but I doubt now, they are gone.
相当多的人曾说我有漂亮的眼睛,但我现在怀疑了,没人这样说了.
I’m whacked to the wide those days, out of spirits.
这些天我疲惫不堪,精神萎靡.
Coughing causes difficulties falling sleep at night, suffering from hurt for eyes, itch for hands, and ache of stiff neck.
咳嗽让我在晚上难以入睡,忍受着眼睛的疼痛,手的痒痒和脖子的疼痛.
On, my gosh, let me die!
哦,我的天啊,让我就这样死去!
I must admit, not taking good care of myself, even bad sometimes.
我必须承认,我没有好好照顾自己,甚至有时伤害自己.
I didn’t make it what I said in the former log, love myself.
我没有像我以前在日志里写的那样做,爱我自己.
But I can do this, it’s just beyond me, now and then.
但是我能做到这一点,只是有时超过我的能力范围.
I hurt the me, out of control.
我伤害了我,失去了控制.
It’s true that we don't know that what we’ve got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.
我们常常不知道我们拥有什么,直到我们失去它,同样,只有当我们拥有了才知道曾经失去了什么,直到它的到来.
I know I lost many from myself, the one used to be.
我知道我失去了很多我曾经的东西.
When?
什么时候?
I can say what I mean, and mean what I say, only to me.
对我上面说的话,我说话算数.
Love myself, work hard, just do it.
爱我自己,努力工作,立即行动
